The big punch - Redux

[Redo]

Journaling...

I think i did something that is against most rules said here on these forums.

I talked to my FIL about what happened on sunday.

I contemplated on actually talking to my L on how hard it is getting to talk to my daughter and how my wife keeps dragging it to the R talk. But i recall my FIl saying i could talk to him if i needed to. So i did. And i think it was good in a way.

We talked lot of stuff for 1 hr. But enough to say that they are trying from their side to convince wife to get back. Apparently she is also seeing how when she goes to social events, daughter stares at other dad's....That really ripped my heart out. That should not be happening to my baby. my Wife left the marriage saying it was to give daughter a better happy life. I am sure what happiness she has shown daughter till now. Its pathetic. Its funny, my FIL kept telling me to 'hold on' for a while and then things will get better. My wife's family knows very well that i'll go nowhere and that i'll always be at their beck-and-call.

My daughter should not lose on having a family environment. It pains me to see her like this.

My wife is still on the high horse taking 0 responsibility to what happened.

I am not sure what to do anymore. I am just gonna work on myself. Yup the pain to see daughter like this is bad. But as a human there's only so much i can do and i am sincerely trying. If she decides to come back, I'll welcome her only after there are lot of changes...from all of us. If she does not, I'll be there for my daughter and try to live my life for myself...

On a positive note, I am planning on a skydiving class in mid-july. Always loved it. I am really looking into getting into the training classes. Something to look forward to i guess.