I wonder if I am strong enough to withstand this.

Even with 180s, GALing and trying to maintain the PMA, I feel like I am right back at day 1 today. W continues her EA even after assuring me it's over. I continue to care for SS21 while she is at work.

Now she is planning to go to a NY Jets game in Philadelphia this fall. Why am I distressed at that? OM is a big Jets fan. W is a big Giants fan and dislikes the Jets. She has never taken that kind of initiative to do anything like that before. Now I think the money she sent to OM was to help get him out here for a "visit."

This may seem foolish and unimportant, but I feel like I am just being played big time.


H 56
W 48
D27,S21
SS25
SS22 Severely autistic
M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs.
"I've never loved you" 3/7/2011
Separated 8/7/2011
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