Where is the line?

[thatgirl007]

So, gah, my sitch is working my nerves! This is a major rant/vent, so you are forewarned.

Man, oh, man, is this stuff tough. I am kind of angry at H right now. It's not so much just any one thing that he has done, but the overall sense of entitlement I see in him. I suppose I will have to bring this up with him, but maybe I will wait until we see C tomorrow.

Well, we started C and it has been a few weeks. I'm not 100% sure I like counseling (or ever will, for that matter), but we'll see how it goes.

The thing that chafes at me right now is that about a month after H left, he got super into spying on me. It was a long phase of keyloggers, cell phone hacks, email hacks, etc. I couldn't really figure out what he was trying to do since he left me and wasn't sure he wanted to come back. It also made me angry because I have always been 100% honest with H and held nothing back. Still, whatever.

Now, he is expressing all of this hurt and anger about things "I did" after he left. People I emailed. Men who tried to hook up with me or flirted with me, etc. And it bugs me because when he asked, I told him that this guy tried to get with me or that friend of his wanted my number, etc., etc. And why should he expect my eternal devotion when he walked out the door?

He even said to me, "You were on the phone with another guy and I had only been gone three weeks!"

I want to scream! Who is this guy and what planet is he on? Did he honestly think that no other man on the planet would want me once he left? Did he honestly think that I would curl up and die a shriveled old maid?

What about all of the many times that he was in bed with another woman while I was being a devoted wife? Does he have selective amnesia?

Now, he wants to know the content of my discussion with anyone of the male species during that time period and despite the fact that - every conversation was innocent - I have no desire to tell him anything.

The only thing I want to say to him is "Get over yourself."

But I know that isn't productive. Is this some kind of stage that WAS go through or something because nobody prepared me for it. Eck.