When does the anxiety end

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Thanks old timer. You are right, you don't know what you don't know...

Clinging to hope: My goal is to "under-react" to these situations going forward. I am dreading the last court date at the end of the month, and then it should be done. I think that day you talk about where people ask how you are and you just say how bad things are...I think that was what I had this weekend. I am just tired of myself. I am tired of moping through life. When I had the girlfriend for 10 months, I was on top of the world. Well, she was doing that for me. I wasn't doing it for myself.

It is easy to let yourself fall in a depression. And I have. I can't do it anymore.

A few people asked me this morning how I was. I said doing well. First time in a awhile where I said more than OK...

The controlling piece. Well i was, I am. I like a beginning and an end. I like to know where I am going. I know I was holding on to life way too tightly. I carry everybody elses emotions on me and feel responsible for everything.

It is a hard life lesson to learn you can only control yourself.

I feel that if I broke down, the whole thing breaks down...I can't put that kind of pressure on myself anymore.