New - HELP! Tried the 180/Last Resort & Failed

[AloneAt35]

Yes, my Dad hit me. He hasn't hit me in close to 20 years, so it really feels awful. He later said he was just frustrated with Ex-P and somehow thought I had consented to be taken off the insurance. My mother rants and raves at me too - I just hate it. It makes me feel so worthless.

I just got home tonight. Its so lonely but maybe its better than the alternative. My family makes me really sad. I seriously wish that someone truly loved me. I know my family sort of loves me, they just have really bad ways of showing it. Ex-P always treated me so much better than I could have ever dreamed possible. I miss my old life with him when I was happy and at peace.

Missing him doesn't bring him back.