I haven't begged or pleaded with him. In fact, I've been pretty much the same as before, not that that's doing me any favors. I get angry, sad, jealous, but luckily have been able to keep them from him while he's at work. He's still in the house, agreed not to leave until I get a job where I can afford to take care of me and the kids (he will of course help). He said he wanted "space" so I have given him that. I know he wasn't happy. I've felt it and his wandering eye for some time, but wouldn't admit it to myself. I think he has been in REPLAY for some time (bought a super expensive watch in 09, reconnected via email with an old girlfriend in '10). I feel like he's close to the end of REPLAY, as I sense a great deal of depression and withdrawal in him, but he is definitely still in REPLAY for now. The bomb wasn't dropped until I found a picture of a girl on his cell phone. I know for a fact he hadn't been texting her before March of 11, so this is a relatively new development, although, as I said, not a total surprise, either.
So he drops the bomb, then says he wants to move out, as if he felt forced into it. Was all gung ho to find a new place at first, but hasn't really said or done much about it since. I asked him to help me update my resume, which he hasn't done. Was shocked when I told him I had applied for a few jobs.
He's been texting his new girlfriends, not sure if a PA has occurred, but there are at least 2 girls, both in their 20's (Yuck!). Actually spent one evening in full giddy text mode, to which I said to stop. He said they were just friends and it's something he's doing now, so I should get over it, but I told him his behavior implied it was more than just friends and it hurt me. Even though he didn't agree to hold back on the texting to these girls, he actually has. In fact, this weekend he actually even left his phone alone for several different times (I never snooped - learned my lesson on that front already)so I don't know if the GF's weren't available or if that is dying down. He really doesn't like young girls when he's in his right mind - they annoy him. He also exchanged a long look with me this morning before he went to work, and brushed my arm lightly but deliberately before he went to bed last night. But otherwise, he's pretty uncommunicative. So I am trying to just make me happy and my kids happy, and if he wants to come along for the ride, so be it. If not, so be it.
