XYZ is here, but I won't be staying...

[XYZ]

Ok, so I've fallen in the trap you warned me against, J3B. Very little contact from W today (what I did get ended in "ILY", so I should be thankful for that). I keep wondering, "what's going on, why isn't she calling me, doesn't she want to spend time with me", etc etc.

I just don't understand it. Are we together or are we not? Five days ago, I got it. We were divorcing and that wast that. Now, I don't get. She wants to fix it, is talking about the future and permanence. That's all great, but no day-to-day stuff. Pre-bomb we used to rarely go more than a few hours without contact, then it slowed way down but isn't back picking up.... I don't know what to think any more. I don't know if I should reach out to her or keep it at her initiating. I don't get the rules any more!

People are right. Piecing is just as hard.