The words "repulsed" only came out of H's mouth. He is referencing a conversation from weeks ago, and taken out of context.
He baited me all day about moving out. He wanted me to tell him to leave. He wants to be able to tell people that I kicked him out. I finally did, I screamed it in fact.
I was the talk of the town when we gave our girl up for adoption. I had to learn how to deal with people talking. I can live with that. He was misquoting what I said in my earlier post about not falling apart in front of customers. And I am still worried about that.
But I had a bath and tears didn't come. I feel in shock, but also strangely calm. I feel that now I will find out what the real issue was. Now, if there is anything going on, everyone will be running to tell me. I am going to have to brace myself for that too, because I feel that that is next.
In 26 years of seeing dozens of military families fall apart, I have yet to see a man leave the marriage with nothing going on on his part.
