The first thing I would ask you is, how are you taking care of yourself? I've been to counseling and am trying to grow as a person on my own. He's still at home, but he's just weird, sometimes like old times, sometimes surly, sometimes just quiet. I know (from my C) that I got lost in my marriage, and I really have to work on finding myself. So I'm trying to spend more time with friends, get out and do more stuff, and be more fun with my kids. Of course, it's not easy and I'm impatient. I want to be better NOW! But change takes time, I suppose, and as much as I hate it, I'll just have to take it as it comes.