W came round to pick kids up, opening pleasantries on how each of us looked, W asked to have a cigarette and a drink in the garden so we go outside
Convo something like this (much more, but these are the highlights/lowlights)
M – Did D14 tell you how much the Vodafone bills were W – Yes, I will have to give you some money M - OK
M – So how much weight have you lost then W – About 2st W – So how much have you lost M – About 2st 4lb M – You look good for it, but you don’t look like you have lost 2st though W – Thanks M – W you always have been beautiful to me, and have always said that W – Yes you have, not enough but you did
M – I am sorry you felt that way, If I do things again I would now say what can I do more of as I think you are beautiful W – Is that the new you again M – Yep
Small talk about work and how busy W is Mentioned that IL’s cam round yesterday, W said MIL had told her and that MIL didn’t say what we talked about
M – One thing I have learnt is not to try and fix things W – What do you mean M – I have always tried to take care of my family and fix things, and I realise I cannot do this all the time M – IL’s, me and friends shouldn’t have to try and tell you things, you need to realise this for yourself and life will also W – Thankyou, I agree
More small talk, go back to kitchen
W – Would you take me back after everything what has happened M – Only if we both realise how much work this would take and the effort needed by both of us W – I wasn’t asking if you would take me back, I was just asking M – OK, I have learnt so much over these past few weeks on what WE would need to do, and how to make a marriage work W – I don’t think we can
(W standing looking very, well, confused and unsure I felt)
Other bits, cannot remember right now
M – How are you though, as you are not eating, and are you sleeping OK W – Who have you been talking to M – No one
M – I took my wedding ring off months ago, not out of spite or vindictiveness, but I realised and accepted that our relationship as it was finished, over, dead. I do not want that R back. We were both unhappy in the last couple of years W – I agree, but I think too much damage has been done M – I didn’t want to have a conversation like this, sorry M – I would like us to have a new better relationship, start from scratch M – You have never said that you do not love me W – (no comment)
Other talk
Me - 37 W - 38 D - 14 S - 12 Together - 16 Married - 12 Bomb - April 13, 2011 W moved out - May 13, 2011
The man I became is changing back to the man I was........... and more
