I am wiped out, but today was a good day. The BBQ with friends was a lot of fun, I got some sun and got a chance to catch up with some friends I haven't seen in a while. Not one word was mentioned about H, and I was thankful for that. I got some sun, and I'm exhausted but happy. The rest of my evening is going to be spent on the couch.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
I hate that on some mornings I wake up and I feel great, but then I have mornings like this where it takes everything in my power to get myself out of bed. I miss him terribly this morning. I wonder if he misses me, and if this is equally as hard for him.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
Good morning DG, yep.....those mornings where ya just want to throw the covers over your head and ignore the world...I think we all have those.
But........ you know thats not possible.... It... sounded like you had a good weekend. One foot in front of the other. One day at a time. I know ...I'm at that point right now with my hubby. Had a really really bad weekend with him. My workaholic / alcoholic. Now im sitting back pondering what the heck!!!!
But.... the sun came up My hubby went to work... I started a converation or tried to about what happened this weekend but did not get very far with it.
I'm trying to get motivated to do something, anything actually.
And...........he does miss U, I'll guarentee it. I think at this point hes trying to figure things out. which way he wants to go....without bruising his ego
Work on YOU..hes watching
This "yo yo " of feelings are so normal. But dont let the lack of contact with him determine what kind of day your gonna have. there is an ole saying that goes "Happiness is not a station you arrive at, but a manner of traveling. "
Keep your path...also " If we fill our hours with regrets over failures of yesterday and worries over the problems of tomorrow, WE have no today in which to be thankful"
I have had those days and still do sometimes. Exoect them from time to time but dont give in to them. Thats the key.
In other words, dont let them :
A) Paralyze you so that you wallow in self pity ( been there)
B) make you do something that you will regret later. Keep up with your DBing even if it isnt getting him back.
Keep doing it for you. I promise you it will get better someday but in the meantime, dont create more pain.
I feel for you DG. We all know what that pain is like and dont wish that on too many people ( I wish it on OM) but beyond that, .........
I hope this is a minor blip and you feel better tomorrow but you have to make it so. Do Something different tomorrow. Force Yourself not to think about it all the time.
You are in control as tough as it is, Ultimatel, you make the decesions on how you feel.
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DG - you had a fantastic weekend and it sounds to me like you may be crashing a bit after your weekend. I agree with the others. He DOES miss you, but he doesn't want to show you that.
He hasn't mentioned D yet and isn't pursuing it. You're still in the game. Keep DB'ing. Keep your positive changes going.
Good morning sunshine!