I'm struggling with how to let H know I find him desirable and attractive (one of his big needs, if not the biggest) when we are not being intimate. I need not find a non-guilt inducing, non-awkward verbal way to do it.
I'm feeling better tonight, although earlier I was irritated that H spent all day on work and then went right to video games with very little interaction with S. I didn't say anything, though, and was pleasant and cheerful in conversation.
I wound up taking a nap instead of going for a mani/pedi - I'm not sleeping well, and I guess the doughnut I had at the aquarium with S caused a sugar crash. I felt much better after the nap, though, so it was worth it. I do have a haircut/color scheduled for Thursday. Not sure how drastic I'll go, but I'm doing something different, for sure.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11