Gosh, what I wouldn't give to have found the DB book and this site before we were physically separated. You've had a rough go of it for a very long time it seems.. It sounds like your H hasn't completely detached himself from you - I think I'd secretly have a little bit of hope if my H boiled me some eggs smile. Anyways, I don't really have much in the way of advice, but you've got support here. And I would totally go for a mani/pedi - I've had a few the last couple of months, and it definitely brought my spirits up - if only for a few hours. Take what we can get right? I've also started reading lots of books. I'm tied to home alot b/c of my young children, and I find it alot easier to 'lose' myself in a good book then even a good movie. I find my mind wanders too much if I am watching tv, but if I'm reading, I can lose myself in the story b/c clearly you have to concentrate and focus when you are reading. I have, however, make sure I'm reading feel-good books. Normally I read a wide range of books, but right now, I just want light reading - you know like Sophia Kinsella type books. It helps me. I'm running out though. Maybe I will take the kids to the library tomorrow smile

I hope H comes through, and you get to do the geocaching tomorrow - something I've always wanted to do with my family.. He clearly still wants to be involved in the family life - not just in his kids life, or he'd be wanting to do stuff with just your son. Hope you get some sleep tonight.


H:36 W:34
M:6y, T:14y
S:5, S:2
Separated (H left): Oct/10