Thanks for the kind words. I've definitely told him how sorry I am, and my MC is helping me find an IC.

He says even before the stuff in 2009, he felt "disconnected", and that's what led to his cyber-affair.

Anyway. I don't know. Today I took S to the aquarium - H was going to come but got caught up with an emergency at work. He seemed really sad about not coming. S and I had a good time - did face painting and got doughnuts on the way home.

He texted twice while I was gone - I didn't respond. (ending the conversation)

When I got home, he was boiling eggs - he mentioned boiling extra for me because I had mentioned wanting egg salad.

I told him we had fun at the aquarium and missed him. Then I told him I was sorry his work stuff wasn't going well, chatted for a minute and then headed to the office (no following him around, ending the conversation).

He wants to go Geocaching tomorrow, so we'll see if that happens.

I was thinking of going and getting a mani/pedi - I'm feeling sad and depressed, but maybe doing something for myself would help.


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11