So it has been almost 2 years and I have a HUGE problem.... I still love my XH. I have tried denying it, I have tried to date, I have tried being alone and giving these wounds their sweet time..... and the wounds still festure. So my new 'thing' is to try and be friends with him and talk to him and see how that goes. I have no clue why I chose this road other then if he is gonna festure in my heart maybe it is better if he is a part of my life and we are friends. I am hoping this will help to bring some piece of mind or something. We sat down just the 2 of us not to long ago and had a very good chat. We have been having small yet serious chats leading up to now since the end of feb. 11. And the big one he admitted to still having feelings. this probably does not help the heart. We have both been unhappy since we split up. I don't know if I am making the right choice to have him in my life or not. Thing is I feel like I can not turn my back on him now. Everyday I want to talk to him and hear about his day and tell him about mine. UGH! what do I do? Insight ideas anyone please!!!!
t=5.5yrs m=4 kids=4 (8,9,10,&11) I dropped the bomb 10-09 regaining myself in house seperation 9-6-09 divorce final 4-19-10 Moved out 9-17-09
