Thanks Gal and Starsky, we spoke for a few minutes when she came to get the kids yesterday. I was cutting grass and she came by, she walked in the house and I followed after s8 opened the door for her. She walked in for the first time since she left. She stood in foyer and talked to kids, she asked about some mail and I found it for her. She then asked about someting else and walked in the kitchen to look in cabinet for it. I told her I would take care of it and get it to her at a later date. The kids were ready to go and were standing by front door. She would not move, she just stood there looking around. I finally had to open the door and tell them to go so I could finish the yard. She slowly walked out and then stopped on sidewalk. She asked me about finances and I replied and then the kids were by the car telling her to come on, and she still just stood there. I finally walked to the car to kiss them by and she followed. She told me that I needed a hair cut and that she could cut it for me today or tomorrow. I told her that would be fine.

She asked me if I needed it cut for the party tomorrow night and I said yes. She asked what time the party was and I replied around 8, she said that Kelly the girl that was having the party for her husband texted her about it. I said well its up to you if you come. She said she would think about it and I said ok, and walked away.

I went out last night with a friend of mine, he to had been through same thing with his w. He sure helped me out and made me realize that I had to live for me and my kids and not to wait for her. He told me, that everyone in our community thinks the world of me and they all know that I am great father and husband, and to let the rest be. He said his ex is on hands and knees begging him home after she left and he wants nothing to do with her now.Only because he started living for him and his 2kids did she realize what she had lost.

I called s12 last night on my way out to eat dinner with him, we were going to a restaraunt that his mom tooke them to last week. I asked him what was the dish he had then that he loved so much that he couldnt stop talking about it. Well s12 yelled across the apt at his moms and asked d14 what it was. I could hear in the background w say to s12 who is going out to eat there????

He replied dad was going and wanted to know what was the food I ate when i was there. Well she knows I opened the door for her a bit, but also not waiting around for her to push it further.

I hate that this has to be a game when it comes to my kids and I will not treat it like one. I love my kids, they are my life and they know and so does she. Like she reminds me all the time your "superdad". That is all I need right now is God and my kids, if my w wakes up one day and realizes that whe screwed up, I will look back with no guilt that i didnt do enough to fix it. I tried before she left,and have changed and she knows it now.

Life goes on for me and my kids at this point. God is in control of the rest.
Have a good day all.