It's well after 1 am and I can't sleep. I have no idea what is going on.
One of my friends ran into H earlier this week and he was with the OW that he is staying with. This OW is a coworker of his, she is significantly older than him, and he has always had a lot of female friends. As much as I'd like to think that H would be unfaithful while we are apart (we had discussed specifically not dating other people) It still creeps into my head from time to time. I remind myself that if he is #1-there is nothing I can do about it anyway & #2-that would be a mistake on his part, and it is by no means a reflection of me.
You know, when H first left, I beat myself up emotionally. I blamed myself for all of our problems in the M, and truly felt like I was a woman not worth loving. I am so thankful that I have worked through that and realized that not everything is my fault, and I am a great person.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
