WAW, Filing as Fast as Possible

[aeolianchaos]

I wonder if these posts are actually showing up in a queue somewhere or if they are just disappearing like so much thought into the ether?

Anyways, its Friday afternoon and I've been doing my best to keep occupied. Have a freelance gig I've been occupying myself with - I figure the sooner I can complete it, the sooner I can take on another one!

Honestly, there are points along this way where I am quite bored, as I don't have W to talk to and I don't really have many friends around here. Because we moved around so much, we relied on each other for friendship, many times. Making friends outside of institutions has never been something I'm strong at - I'm happy being around people w/o necessarily needing to talk w/ them. I'm more of a "5 Close friends" than "500 of my closest friends" type of person, I guess.

I find myself making assumptions about W is thinking or feels - a big no-no, I'm sure, but our contact is quite limited. Beyond issues relating to her cat or the D process, she has made no efforts to get in touch with me. I am doing the same, although sometimes I wonder if I should not be - typically we both called each other a lot just to check in, and when I was out of town earlier this year, she called me daily - almost always her calling me. I'm not sure what I should be doing with that. She knows she can call me if she wants to communicate - I'm not giving her the 'silent treatment - but I am doing my best to detach from her and her dramas so that I can most effectively manage my own.

Hopefully someday the last 5 or 6 posts I've put up will get cleared and then I'll be barraged with wisdom, insight, and a couple good 2x4's.