When does the anxiety end

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not good. Well I have do have a fair amount of time as well. Too much time. Lets just say I peaked early and will not be going any higher unless i move. Which can't happen with the divorce. I am not going to move away from my 3 boys.. I am bored with the job, but can't do much about it. We are having one of our better years as well. But I like you have been only giving 50-60%. Well I need to ratchet it up, because I cannot afford to lose my job now...

But I am alone Tues thru Friday. I have the boys sat, sun, mon.

I tried dating as soon as the w moved out. I ran to match.com, found my gal, thought I was in love. Talked about moving in to my house with her 4 kids. Had all the plans. After 10 months, insomnia comes back full force. I figured out I wasn't in love. I don't do well with indecison, lack of some control... I hurt her really bad when I ended it. Never hurt anybody before. It felt like a second divorce. It was just over a month ago and it is still hard. But I couldn't go on with her know that she wasn't the one. I didn't want to make the same mistake a second time. She gave me everything I was looking for. The only problem was I needed to do it for me. It was a false sense of security.

Oh and by the way, there is a reason they tell us to wait awhile after dating. Then the divorce started coming to a close and the reality of it all starting hitting me. I slept a second night. So a little better today.

The W and i relationship still in a bad place. She got everything she wanted and more and she is still angry. The vile things that come out of her mouth on a text. I cringe every time a see a text from her.

I just won't go there with her. I never had anxiety, insomnia, nothing until 3 years ago. One night I stopped sleeping which is when I found out, I was alone in the marriage. A year later, she ended it. I can't wait till this is finally done. I felt like she has been holding me down ever since. Threating with custody, you name it.