Thanks MyKarma, Telemark and BeingMe, I appreciate the words of encouragement. You are right. Thanks you for validating.

Journaling: I guess it is obvious I now have internet access from home again. Yea. I don’t really have much to journal about and the dog wants to play. It is tough to ignore 220 lbs of Mastiff.

For the last month weather permitting I have been painting the exterior of the house on nights and weekends. I am taking tomorrow off work to push the job through to finish. Sandi posted something on 9s thread that validated for me some of the changes I will make here if I can keep this place. For now getting a maintenance coat of stain on the outside is cathartic sort of like plowing a farm field.

DelinquentGirl posted about her anniversary. Mine is due in August and I wasted some energy wondering how I’ll react to it and other holidays. I’ve gotten through other anniversaries associated with tragedies so I’ll get through these. The first couple of years are the hardest unless something triggers a memory.

Soon I will have to start a new thread. I’ve decided to remove this from my signature
Quote:
Running away is easy and does not promote much self improvement

It is an indictment of STBXW. It is an expression of anger aimed at her. It is a negative. It is dragging me down. It is gone.

BITS
Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55
D 30
S 27

You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill