I do feel helpless in this situation sometimes. I know it is not good. My father left my mother and us 4 kids when we were all very young for other woman, there was domestic violence that i witnessed too. My mother became a drinker and there were times we had no heat, electric and food because my father didnt send the money, his step kids were more important. before this we lived a very comfortable upper middle class life. My mother had to sell the house and i was such a nervous person because of the instability growing up, i was unable to work. thats when i met my husband, he was like my knight in shining armor. I know others have had worse situations. I dont know why i feel like a victim like my mother. i wish she had been a strong role model. Thats why im terrified of divorce and am hanging on to my m for my dear life.
