Took everything I had just to get through today. A lot of sadness & depression accompanied by the ache in the pit of the stomach. Feels like the Day of the Bomb all over again. Don't know why I was fixated on W and the sitch, but I couldn't stop thinking about her and what she's doing to our M.
Tonight she is at a baseball game w/ her company; I'm home w/ SS. Fortunately I'm away tomorrow night and Saturday for an out-of-town gig, which means playing music in good company, a little extra cash in the pocket and distancing myself from my angst. I'll try very hard to not think about W enjoying her EA with me out of the house.
Tomorrow is another day.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
