When does the anxiety end

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I do appreciate all the good advice. It also nice to know there are other options from a med standpoint. Seroquel was mentioned before which may be a good alternative. I take a little xanax and ambien right now. I finally slept last night after 3 nights. I get freaked out that I have to take Xanax and Ambien to sleep which doesn't always work. I just have to believe that once my sleep patterns get better, I get more confidence and I am able to bring myself out of this hole. I can taper down everytyhing on my own. I have to accept the fate that just happened on Monday in court. I know it will just take time as everyone mentioned. I am scared, I have anxiety about it all. Mix in the insomnia which is just a revolving cycle. It has been tougth.. oh and yea I am depressed. Who wouldn't be...Did I say that my W was the one who wanted this and who cheated on me too.

I do well with certaninty, control--knowing what tomorrow will bring. I was the type A guy. Well all that has been blown up and it is about learning how to live again in a different way.

Today is Day 1... I am looking forward to when this thing is finally signed which is probably a couple months away still. Everytime I get a text from her, I still get that jolt of anxiety. Because she will be yelling about something. We were at a baseball game for our son last night. She was laughing and carrying on like everything was great. Why wouldn't it be, she doesn't ever have to work again. At least for the next 5 years.

I never wanted to be the bitter angry divorced guy. She turned me into that guy.