So I was hoping I'd feel a bit better today but I don't... Gosh I hate this awful feeling. I know its over in my heart, but I still know its not what I want. I still want to be with him, and I feel like we have such a long future ahead of yes. Why can't it be a good one. We briefly talked last night before he had to rush off and he said again that this is not about him wanting to be with someone else. I don't know why but that almost makes it hurt a bit more, b/c then I know he's truly thought long and hard about how much he does NOT want to be with me. I know you will all disagree with this part, but we did talk about divorce - I brought it up but mainly b/c he has made it clear that its over, and I just want him to say its over - which he still hesitates. Although last night he pretty much said 'yup its over'. But again when I mentioned divorce - he again asked why we would have to do that - that a legal separation is all we will need. He has said this in the past, and he asked me whats the point in getting divorced. I am so confused - I dont know why he's doing any of this. I can't remember what I wrote in my last few posts since they still haven't shown up, but he did admit to starting antidepressants three weeks ago - but of course he said they don't make a difference. Now that I've admitted out loud that I believe this to be over, I just can't imagine feeling worse than I do right now. Yet I know its going to be even worse when he moves his stuff out, and worse yet when I sit down with a lawyer, and absolutely devastating when we have to talk about separation of assets and even worse custody. The strength I need to get through the next couple of months seems impossible. Today's question - given all of this new information, am I right to assume there is zero hope left? Please help.
