CTH, just to add, I think you and I are very alike! While I'm not pushing myself regarding dating I do push myself about being active. When my M ended I was gonna have a new life! Need a choir member, I'm it. Gotta a Bible Study going, I'm there...it was one thing after another. I was proud that I was not being beat down by what had happened to me. I found it hard to sit at home and do nothing! It felt like failure. I see this so strongly in you as well. I honestly think this desire to date is based on your need to keep going, plugging ahead. To not date is to be a failure...less of a man. I empathize with that. Since I started following your thread I can't remember a time when you didn't think you were ready to date! A few months ago you "dated" the Match woman and ended up feeling guilty etc. You admitted it was validation you were after. I think the hardest thing for you to do at this point would be not to date, so it's probably the thing you need to do. I don't mean to come across as harsh or judgmental, and fear that I sometimes do, I just see a lot of me in you. Btw, I burned myself out with Adrenal Fatigue being Mr. energy. I didn't spend the time I needed for healing. I just want you to give yourself that time. You've done amazingly well through this whole thing, let CTH rest a bit...just for a bit. Trust me, you'll be able to bounce back and do the dating thing so much better.
