I am very sure that her Roller Coaster is much more intense. Just sad that I was the one that put her on it. She did not deserve it. Funny how bad you think you have it until it gets really worse....she really is being very forgiving about everything. More than most people I would say. I mean she hasnt asked me to leave, she hasnt asked me to sleep on the couch. I have offered both of the things and wants me to stay until she has it sorted out in her head. So, honestly gives me quality time to spend with my kids. (I took them to the library yesterday evening, picked out books and read to them. Was awesome....I have to say.) Took them to dinner them home for a movie, wife was out with my mom (akward I am sure). It also gives me a chance for some 180's and DBing like a mad man. So I am trying to take full advantage of this. Working on staying positive and cheerful. But I really feel so horrible for the havoc I have put this woman through.
