One foot out the door, the other on a rug....

[luvmyhubby]

So this morning I am better.. He wasnt there exactly on time this morning so i sent a TXT to check if he was on his way. He called back saying he was close and he arrived in about 10 mins. Then he went into our bathroom to get somethings and I got my stuff together. Then I went to the door and said I had to go he quickly replied Have a great day.. Which is ODD.. The day before he could barely get a response to that comment from me out of his mouth..

Then today he tells me that??? Maybe because last night his D5 was missing him and called him several times to ask him to come home. I never talked directly to him only the kids.

I wonder if he thinks that I am getting my kids to say or do things? He hasnt said this to me and of course I am not.. I would never do that I think it is unfair to the kids..
I wonder why he is nice one minute and cannot face me the next? I did text him yesterday like an idiot and ask him if he was still angry with me.. Of course he said nothing had changed and yes he was still angry.. I didnt respond.. Kinda a low point for me! I think this week we took steps backwards..

I needed to getup at 3am to work out but when the alarm went off i wokeup and my body said no way.. So Ill make sure to do that when I get home.. I need to relieve some stress.. Ive lost so much weight I actually had to buy a new swimsuit even the one from my honeymoon(yes i still have it) was too big..

Im going out of town this weekend on a trip we planned together even though he doesnt want to go. Im going to tube the river with a few friends and relax and have no kids to fuss over!

So for the moment my detachment seems to be going further. Im praying daily to keep myself strong and to resist using my mouth to further harm the situation! That also is a HUGE struggle!