Today was a rough one but I think I'm managing to pull through it ok.

Gabe texted me at noon and said that they let him go from his job (that he has only had for a month!) because they felt that "cooking wasn't really his passion". They hired a cook, not a chef!!!! UGH! Ridiculous! Now he's out of a job yet again but stayed surprisingly ok all afternoon. We'll see if the depression hits him like it usually does after a bomb like this.

Then, not even an hour later, I pulled out of my office to drive home for lunch and the broom drove right in front of me and I was stuck right behind her halfway home. My eye literally started to twitch and my hands were shaking. GAG! WTF do I have this reaction to her still? She's nothing. She's less than nothing. But knowing what she once was and the destruction cause because of her involvement makes my crazy apparently.

I'm trying to block it out now but if I blink too long I see her in my mind's eye and it makes me sick.


T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43
bomb12/4/07
PA5/07
S12/26/07
D final 11/17/08
Back together with no defined R 05/2010
confused....to say the least!!!