I went and apologized to my wife today. Not for her. not for her to feel better. I did it for myself. She didn't apologize for anything she did wrong and that's okay too I wasn't looking for an apology. Just apologizing to her was a huge weight off my chest. I actually feel a bit of calmness now. I hope it's a lasting feeling. I still want to fight for our marriage but I feel like accepting my share of the blame is a good thing. It might have been something not in the LRT program but I strongly feel like it was something I needed to do. What gets me though is she text me a little bit ago. Not to talk about the divorce or anything. She just text me to say good nite and not to disappear. I said good nite (her name) I'm not getting hopeful or anything I'm just hoping it's a bit of a peace offering from her. I'll take any kind of little calm in the storm that I can find.
