That is where I struggle the most. I've always given up on everything, especially relationships. Do I try to hang in there, or do I give up? Can you move on, regardless? Meaning, swim to the other side, don't look back... he can swim over to you IF and when he's ready. But you won't get anywhere constantly looking over your shoulder. You'll just stay in place and wear yourself out.
I cried to God on my way home from work today, telling Him I am confused and I don't know what to do.
No question, this is a hard time. Our 24th was spent apart and h sent me some flowers...vague "happy ann" comment.
I recall thinking "no way can i THANK him for these..."...
for the next anniversary, I begged/borrowed money and went to Italy and took my kids.
I was NOT alone, I did something I had hoped to do with h, but had my kids with me, and we had a blast. Best money I ever spent...esp since I didn't have it to spend, but you know what I mean.
You needn't do that drastic a thing but you can plan something fun to do that day so you know it'll never happen again. It helped me to know that.
It does get better.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
