I so relate to your comments. I too have done some serious "stinkin' thinkin'" for years.
The things I worried about usually, were things over which I had
little to no control....almost all of it.
I figured out once that it was literally an hour or two a day, over a 24 hr period and it added up to a few years of my life
needless, counter productive NEGATIVE UNHAPPY thinking, which means unhappy living...all self inflicted...
Like rh, I too found Tolle's book "the Power of Now" helpful
although for some reason I preferred the audio version. I'd listen to it at night & it helped me sleep. At times, it was just what I needed to hear...As I view it, it's a cognitive tool to help quell cognitive malfunctions. It works.
Getting rid of this handicapping habit, is really worthy of your efforts.
I was travelling last week and the plane hit some turbulence. That reminded me of a near crash landing I was in years ago, where the landing gear would not come down, and all of the passengers knew it was to be an emergency landing.
We all felt it might be our time to die.
Ever since then, when I fly, I cross myself on take off and landing. I never fly without doing that.
I sort of want to stop. But then I irrationally wonder if "this time I don't cross myself...could it be THE TIME it crashes?"....
it's weird and neurotic of me, and I know this!
The friend I was with on that flight years ago, confessed to me she has to say the "Our Father" three times, no matter what...or what?
Or...it will crash?
Why? B/c the 'Gods of planes" will punish us for not doing the ritual?
This logic would mean that my ritual is solely responsible for keeping the plane airborne...um, yeah...
(SIGH)
It's very neurotic, we both know that. But the behavior was triggered by a traumatic event in our lives...and now and then it flashes into our minds.
But see, crossing myself, however needless, only takes seconds of my life, and it doesn't hurt relationships.
Your stinkin' thinkin' needs work, and it is so worth your efforts.
It's directly related to your happiness, (and your w's and family's...) So you gotta do what you gotta do
to fix it. It's eating away at you and is self inflicted Unhappiness.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
