Well, last night when my wife and I finished watching TV at 8 pm I stated I was going to finish my homework and she had already stated that she was going to bed after the TV show. So, as we got it she was close to me and we kissed goodnight. She stated not to stay up late and to come to bed soon. Nothing was going to happen, but my problem with all of this is that I kissed her. It was just a peck on the lips and I said I love you to which she responded in kind. I did the same thing this morning when I left for work. We drive different vehicles in on Wednesday's because that's my school night. So, this morning, I gave her a quick peck on the lips and said I love you and she responded in kind. I just think I blew it as far as not initiating any kind of affection since she stopped wanting to have sex with me because it would be cheating on OM. I feel like an idiot. It just seemed the way she was standing both times that she wanted to kiss. It wasn't much of a kiss either time though so I guess I'm upset about that too. I should've just walked away from her both times and not even kissed her or said I love you.

Any ideas? Was it okay what I did? I haven't gotten any responses from anyone in awhile so maybe I'm just DBing along and doing what I need to be doing, i.e., GAL. I don't know. I just leave it up to God and just keep saying that He's in control. I'm doing my part now by GAL and helping the Lord help me.


M: 48 (2nd marriage)
W: 47 (1st marriage)
T: 22
M: 21
D (M, 1st Marriage: 26)
D (M, 1st Marriage: 24)
S: 18
EA: 31 Dec 2004
ILYBINILWY: 31 Dec 2004
In all things give thanks to God; I thank you God.