74 Days - Who Knows?

[Denver_2010]

You're an A type of personality, right?
Not being in control is its own sort of hell for you.

Absolutely... to both.

I see what you are saying Jack. The problem is that right now, she is NOT committed to the M. We are 'taking space' for the month of June. So I cannot expect her to be okay with me asking her where she has been or what she has been doing.

For example... if I call her right now and say 'W, I'm feeling insecure right now and I need to talk to you about it..." Well, I am not giving her the space that she says that she needs. In fact, she will probably begin to feel smothered if I do it much.

So I'm stuck just hoping that she is telling me the truth... hoping that I'm not being made a fool... hoping that I am not being taken advantage of...

It would be much easier if I was ok with her... and also ok without her ... as you were. But I'm not there I guess.

I thought that I was for a week or two after the toilet event, but now I'm not. I can't explain this ... I just know how I feel.

Thanks again Jack.

Denver