Dazed and confused...

[ninelives]

Wow Lost! Its ironic that you and I had the exact same thing happen on the same night. Mine in Canada and yours in Calif.

I did so many things wrong as well. I was soooo bitter and despite wanting her back, pushed her away. She chose the OM over me despite 17 years of marriage and two sons but here is where I want to help you.

You need to forgive her and that is the hardest thing to do. You dont have to ever admit that you are ok with the affair, but you have to own your part in it and have to forgive what she has done if you ever wish to move forward. To have this hanging over her head is not healthy for either of you.

I am still struggling with this especially since she is still with OM but you have to have a straight talk with you W with no emotions and find out where she is at IMO. The only trouble is , they are so capable of lying. Im not sure if I can really trust my w again. Time would help with her being good however, there will always be soemthing there that I would have to deal with.

Good luck with everything.

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