If into the security recordings you go.. only pain will you find.
I intended it that way Jack simply because I don't want to start the thread wandering into "gossip land".
The key to what has happened is that for a long time now I have always had that feeling that I was missing part of the story. It has been discussed with my wife. I was assured that it was just my imagination. Everything I have ever done that was "wrong" has been hashed over a lot. But when it came to discussing her side of things they were brushed over and dismissed. Even in the C sessions. The C even questioned a lot of the statements made by her and once again it was brushed over and dismissed.
Well I got to hear the whole story finally. Not from her.. but from her counterpart. I knew the bulk of the story but there were parts that never seemed "complete". I don't have to worry about that now. Her "friend" happened to move into the same apartment I just moved into. We happened to run into each other and had a little "sit down".
I have long said that the affair was not a deal breaker. And it isn't. The deal breaker for me was that she chose to hold me accountable and hide all her secrets. This is what has set things in motion.
This to me is why C never went anywhere. I mean how can you be dishonest and expect things to change? Once the C seemed to falter or become non-productive it was obvious to me that something more drastic had to happen. Now 3 weeks later I have confirmation that I was not asking for anything unreasonable or placing undue accusations upon her.
But.. Jack..
Some good news is that I got a call yesterday and both kids wanted to come and spend the night. I was a bit taken aback by it. I said sure. So my D and my S spent the evening with me last night and are hanging out by the pool today. We had dinner with my Mom and Dad and then went back to my place. I just got back from going home for lunch and they both seemed to be having a good time. Now all this could have been because my wife had a date last night.. but I am hoping it was just them wanting to come over. D was pleasant and I even saw her smile and laugh a few times.
Time will tell.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
