so my H just emailed me to tell me he is going to look at renting a house tonight (he has been living at his moms for 8 months). I was going to tell him its over this week - as I knew this was coming. I'm not surprised whatsoever, and I really thought I was preparing myself for the end, but now that's he's told me this, I feel absolutely sick to my stomach all over again. I am a complete and utter mess. This the end... I have to accept it and move on. I know that, I get that, but I just don't want to feel this pain anymore... I just cannot for the life of me understand how we got to this place. Our marriage was never horrible, our problems were minor, and now its over. With a 23 month old and a 5 year old who do not deserve this. I feel totally devastated right now and its really really hard - even impossible - to believe that I will ever feel okay again.
