There is not that much stress any more. We are both leading our own lives and although I still have hope, I really have no EXPECTATIONS.
My wife has her own free will and can choose to do as she wishes. I can not control that nor do I want to.
She may finish her journey in this or she may not. Again I am just an observer at this point.
All I can do is stay as detached as possible and hope that she will decide to look within. For now she has not chosen to do that.
As far as missing your old life, sorry to say that all our marriages were over at BD. Maybe we will get to build new ones either with our present spouse or with some one else. Time will tell. And we all have lots of TIME. Just none to waste.
