It usually bites us when we give in to urges we know we shouldn't. But, you knew that.
While I've never been much of a snoop, the times I have, I think I knew what I would find and somewhere in my twisted little brain I thought that somehow being faced with the cold hard truth would make it easier to cut ties. The only truth I know for sure, is that none of this is easy.
You commented that you've been coasting along. Coasting, while you get your legs back underneath you, isn't so bad IMO. And then, you have your son to raise and all the daily minutia. What do you envision yourself doing?
