Not really. I've been trying to think of hobbies I've put off for awhile and I can't really think of anything. I've always drawn and I still continue to do that. I used to play the guitar but I sold it quite awhile back because I got bored of it. I don't know if there is anyplace I can volunteer honestly. I never really thought about it.
I keep putting thoughts into my head also that she is confused but then she goes off on her things of wanting to divorce soon and I end up thinking that maybe I'm the one that's confused. When she tells me that she loves me and hugs and kisses me when she leaves I even start to wonder if I'm back up here just in case she decides she doesn't like her new life.
I have made a couple of errors that are against what the book says and have glanced at her facebook page. I noticed she still has her status as married. I think if she was having an affair it might have ended. Which I only have suspicions and no proof of that or she may be battling with herself judging from a couple of posts she made last night a couple of hours after we had talked about the D. I'm doing my best to not look at things like that now.
Sometimes i wonder when this thing inside of me that frightens everyone will just go away and finally let me know peace.
The world uses me and takes what it wants. Then leaves me broken on the side of the road. When is it ever going to be enough?
