It makes me sad to see all the new posts by new people on here. It's a club that I don't think most of us want to belong to, but I'm glad we are able to support one another.
4 months that we have been separated. Have had NC at all since last Friday. Before that, only via text and I have not seen him for over a month.
I have good and bad days, but lately I have been really missing him. I also have given up any hope that we will reconcile. It's hard to accept it, but I'm trying to be as positive as I can about it. Part of me wants to tell him to come and get the rest of his things, but the other part of me isn't ready to make that final step. Knowing some of his things are here comforts me at times. I know, it makes me sound unstable.
I've been going to IC for 5 months now and honestly, I think that and my kids and friends are what keep me sane. I am so grateful for them. I've learned a lot about myself in C, and I am glad I am going. I've made some positive changes in my life and it feels good. I feel like my life is great except for the issues in my M. I'm trying to be happy despite of everything, but I feel like I have a giant hole in the middle of my heart and sometimes it feels unbearable.
I am working so hard on detaching. That is by far the hardest part of all of this.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
