I know how you feel amd it [censored]. The OW thing badly plays games with your head. Force out any negative thoughts. These MLC'ers are not themselves. The person you love is still in there, but from what I've read, will not come out the same in the end. Alcohol is very cruel and even worse for a depressed person like your H MLC'er. My W has even called the kids back from 20-somthing bars while partying (this has not occurred for some time). Hang on and be there for our H as long as you can, as now he may now be battling two demons.
If not for our kids, we'd go insane in this situation. Love them, hug them, and be there. I'm sure you are. Show them what it's like to be sane under insane circumstances. Tough stuff, for sure. Hate every minute of it, but relish my time with my girls. Got stuff on the BBQ and its a beautiful summer day. Tunes are playing. However, W remains silent and I'm sure whatever she's up to this evening will never be replaced my satisfaction of having a simple dinner with my kids. Good luck to them, 'cause their gonna need it!