I haven't heard from my H in over a week and I'm breaking down here with the whole no contact thing. I have friends that have known H for along time and they say they don't know him anymore. They also think that me going to counseling without H or the homewrecking roommate there that the counselor won't be able to give me accurate advice.
My friend also is afraid that the counselor will give me false hope in my M. But, everytime I have follow this friend's advice it backfires. I feel so torn, I hate this, I am just going to have gather the strength back and go back to him initiating contact with me. I just think it is messed up how my friends think that I would be waiting for along time and they don't want me to wait forever for my H.
I think I need to read DR again because I think it is funny how everytime I read it my H starts coming around again. I think I might have messed up when I seen him that last time. He was trying to tell me something and I kissed him and didn't let him finish what he was saying when I should have. For that I think I backslid.
M 27 H 27 M 1yr and 5mths together: 8yrs no kids separated since: 1/26/11 H filed and had me served: 7/6/11
