I am attempting NC because it helps me accept her choices right now. I dont want to know if she is asking about me, I dont want to know that " here comes the downward spiral" I just want to accept what she has done, what she appears to want in her life and to then live my life the best I can.

Contact with her frankly is too painful. It has me longing for her and our family. It makes me want. This doesnt allow me to progress.

So the answer is, I NEED this to really change.

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BITS
M-46
W-42
M-16y
T-19 y
s10 s15
BombDec.19/09
Sep-F16/10
Sep Papers signed by W- June 30/10
Recon July 5/10
PA foundOut- Oct 30/10
Mental HospNov/10
moved out Nov/10
Leg Sep Mar 15/11