One foot out the door, the other on a rug....

[luvmyhubby]

This roller coaster ride is crazy! After yesterday morning I had a bad day and just put guilt on my shoulders for blowing up. Last night my H took my son to an appointment and came back to the house and stayed a bit. I really tried to ignore him and go on with my evening which wasnt too hard. I did ask him if he wanted any dinner which i had already made on the stove. He said no.. Is this bad to do?

He was on the couch and I was eating my late dinner since I had worked out. I asked him how his day was just to be nice and he said not good. I inquired a bit and he replied that he didnt go into work at all. When I asked if he was okay and why he said that he was just thinking about everything and seemed a bit upset. I guess my outburst in the morning really had an affect on him.
After that I shut the conversation off and focused on getting the kids to bed and then he eventually left. I did tell him I wouldnt be waking him up by phone anymore that he was a grown man and needed to pick the kids up on time. He agreed and got there on time today which was really odd..

This morning he sat down and complained he was dizzy which happened a month or so ago when we went to the C. I think that it is stress and his blood pressure but I cant be for sure. I offered a few suggestions but wasnt sure how to approach this.. Do I actually help him and stay concerned or just let him be sick on his own? If he is dizzy and cannot drive this does affect the kids and their safety etc..

Then he calls and tells me my D is sick and has a fever. Since he doesnt feel well he will get her and watch her till I can come take her to the dr. So it seems like he and I end up in the house together for longer periods of time on accident..

Today I am strong and it is a new day.. Im prepared to run the marathon and will not spend my energy on the sprint!

Prayer is helping a lot and makes me feel better.. Working out REALLY helps get rid of my anger..

It has been about 7 weeks since this whole thing started I think.. One grain of sand at time..