Shane, I'm right there with you except a) no children and b) not getting a second chance. It's absolutely mind-blowingly confusing; as so many here have said, it's as if something has just taken possession of your loved one and is controlling them remotely. I'm in incredible pain with my simple situation; I can't imagine the agony you must be feeling.
Hang in there. I don't know if I should be trying to get my wife back either. We'll probably never know, but--and this is important--I bet either path will lead to happiness eventually.
You'll be okay. We all will. It's just stupid and senseless that we all seem to be going through it.
