Am I failing?

[Forrest Gump]

So the past few weeks have been both hard and exciting.

This is all new to me. I have never been on my "own" and I never expected that I would be the one to WA. Yes.. I made the choice to leave and I put forth the effort that made that happen. I was not happy with it but there just really was no other choice. We had done the C thing and it just never seemed to go anywhere. I found myself just really wanting out. Our ideas were not that different but we could not find a common ground.

As expected I have found out that people are not who they say they are.

I have been disappointed by a few people.

But my R with some people has been renewed and made stronger.

My big concern thru a lot of the past 2 years has been that my wife has not been honest with me. There was just always that little voice that told me she was not "all in".

Lets just say that I got confirmation of that this past Friday night.

But this does not excuse my actions over the past 2 years in any way.

But it does allow me an out.

I am OK with someone breaking the deal.

I am not OK with someone lying to me about it.

I have known for a while.. and it took me a while to act upon it. It came up in C and she denied it. I pressed the issue.. and was told I was crazy. Even the C questioned it.

The C was told that was a "crazy" idea.

So what I am left with is me WA from my wife. My son has been a trooper thru this. I have actually had him with me alot. He wants to be with me and we have a good time. My D wants nothing to do with me. I can chalk it up to her being 16 (almost 17) and being mad at the world.. but I just feel like that is not the case. She is my wife's twin and they are more friends than Mother/Daughter. So I find it hard to even find a place to grab and start moving forward with her.

So the task I need help with is how to break the ice with the D.

I call.. I text.. I checkup.. I offer.

I need some ideas beyond that.