I like where we are right now, but I have to admit that I'm a little afraid to get comfortable. We've had many "honeymoons" only to fall into a screaming pit of snakes within a week.
This feels different though.
H is gone for the week for work, and I had a slow day at work, which means I got stuff accomplished. I really need to close on Mondays in the fall so that I can have 2 days off per week! But everytime I say that, I have a busy one...
I am enjoying my night alone in the house. After years of being alone maybe too much, and now, not so much, it is a nice feeling to be alone for a while. Almost feels like going to a spa. I think, I've never actually done the spa thing.
When H goes, I notice all of the little things that H does for me when he's home like having coffee ready, putting the frozen pizza in the oven. haha, and walking the dogs.
Since our problems really got heavy, he has been doing all of these things regularly. When he's away, I don't mind doing it at all, but when he's home, he does so much. Maybe it's his way of saying sorry when he couldn't say it?
Our roles have reversed in so many ways since he really started getting angry. I used to cook SO much, but I've noticed, that if he's mad, I just can't do it, even if I was just about to start, was in the mood, and had everything ready.
Same with cleaning the house. I LOVE to clean it when I'm happy, the music is loud, and usually when he's away. I can no longer do it when he's home. I guess because I felt like he tried to reduce me to being a maid. H, I know that that is NOT what your intensions were, but that's how it felt.
This is going to sound so anti-lib, and I am by no means a shrinking violet, but I really LOVE to cook for HIM, when I feel loved. Maybe that's just me, or maybe women really are wired that way, and we've lost touch. I don't know.
I guess I will do anything for H if he treats me right, and I shut down everything if he doesn't.
Poor H, I'm glad he's getting it, because we both must have high blood pressure from all of the frozen pizza we've been eating.
