I will hopefully see my therapist this week. She is an imago therapist and her big thing is creating a safe space for people to talk.
As much as I want to also do option 2 (less scary for w) I think I will need help. Not only am I dealing with the separation, my eyes have been opened to the emotional abuse my wife did to me for 8 yrs whilst being an addict. Does that mean I want to punish her for it.. no. But I need to be honest with myself that 2m to deal with 8 yrs of abuse is not alot of time.
I kinda get those thoughts "Wait a second.. you abused me! I'm willing to forgive and forget but you want me out of YOUR life caz you can't deal". I get it.. but the wound is fresh. Hence why I want a c.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
