One foot out the door, the other on a rug....

[luvmyhubby]

The anger rises.. I had a good weekend got out and hit on even asked to go home with someone. None of which really made me feel good just missed my H more. He chose to tell the children on his own where he was staying etc. This made me angry that he did this without my input and it set in motion a whole string of events.
Every step he takes away i seem to react a bit more. I called him and argued with him and got angry with him. When he came to pickup the kids this morning I took him aside and gave it to him. I basically told him that he was being a selfish, immature axx. Then went on to relay all of the other angry thoughts that I had been bottling up in my head for a while.

I told him that I was going to be added to the bank account so I could see EVERY cent that was being spent for his company. I also informed him that if he chose to get a divorce that I wouldnt just accept what he was giving that I would go after his company too since I funded it. However I didnt want any of that I wanted him to want to come home and be a father and husband.

He eventually told me he expected me to get angry etc and that it was okay. This comment really made me wonder if he was talking to someone and having an EA. I did ask directly if he was talking to anyone about our marriage woman or man and he said no. Ive been really good about keeping my cool but man i fell today..
Im still angry about the whole thing and hurt.. I did apologize to him for losing it and he said oh that is okay dont be sorry. Made me even angrier..

I guess it is time to schedule my next DB appt...