I am sorry you are in this bad situation. As 2Step said, post often. Your posts initially will be moderated but you'll notice faster responses as time goes by.
Ask for help if you need and there are great vets here who can give good advice.
Share your sorrow and we are here to share it with you.
Good luck!
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